/confessions/ on my father

Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference


I definitely might have took a long gap for literary enlightenment or might be a cover up for writers block.....But i still gotta question myself that am i a writer to get that block(not the block laymans think).....
But am finally back....
As only few people might know or even they might not clearly understand the depths of compliqué yet simple relationship i share with my father.....
You need not have to get "il commence à nouveau" kind of thoughts as i'm not gonna tell a pack of lies that makes my father look " the enlightened one".....

Everytime i think of him....theres some kind of unclear and unconvinced notions about his character which i dont know how many of the people might have understood it.....
Way ahead of his time in thinking and attitude,is also the one who enjoys the stern perfection of his multifaceted talent and also situational wit and sarcasm.....
Not among the one who teaches lessons but among the one who create the atmosphere of learning....
Definitely the one who has taken the road less travelled....
The ability to be gain freedom in his own thought process is the only thing i was taught by him....



I still cant get the clarity on him....
Might be the simplicity in his complexity is the factor that makes me unconvinced of his thoughts....
But i lastly learned one thing.....

The complexity is not the resultant of not understanding a particular thing....
Its not able to decipher things composed of many interconnected parts....
So is nature to physicists and my fathers character to me.....
But most of the time you arent even able to discover parts so here interconnection cant be made.....
But as you go on learning you get the things simple....more simple and the stage you have discovered that you have made a progress....The last thing at this stage that makes you feel perplex is....

You are standing where you beginned..........

/mindscape/ in the search of enlightenment

Some might feel this as une grande nouvelle à fêter but as my "in-built" creativity is the question,i need to find some answers and reasons to the questions that has been taunting my conscience...
I dont know "le facteur de la diminution de" but do realise that its happening....
I am being more clockwork orange* as it is clearly visible in
my actions and thoughts and the effect its leaving is really something thats difficile à expliquer ......
Not making this a très longue pièce de trash....
I just have to answer some unanswered questions and need some time.....
I guess you've undertood what i meant to say....


*Clockwork Orange- "Clockwork" means mechanical and "Orang" in malay means human...So clockwork means mechanical human who doesnt really have the rational consciousness and all that phenomenon....Hence,guess that you arent confused about the ultra-violent movie with advanced psycological stuff in violence and emotions control by Stanley Kubrick(Kubrick is one of my favourite filmmaker).......

/random/ on the earth

Not always but sometimes there might be a situation in everyones life that you're stressed out with the days work and still keep on working....And guess what,the concentration levels are dropped to such extincts that the last page of a notebook becomes your friend...Some may draw designs not necessarily drawing masterpieces and some might write something....
Something similar happened to me after a long 8-hours session at school and an extra class of aromatic compound that i started writing something....something ranged to a peotic verse(on the earth) and some flowchats on creative capitalistic system....

On the Earth

That was the time when
Water was holding back the waves
The time when the silences at the
Situation was showing the stern perfection of the nature
The time when i was lost in my
Thoughts searching my way to the mines of creativity
The time when i demanded freedom
From the Academic Gardens of Competition
The time when a cloud was beneath my feet
Taking me to eternity
The time when i realised that
Living in the dreams is much better that surviving here
On the Earth

---Aditya Kunapareddy

/influence/ seven shades of love

Dont remember the first time when i saw it but it was the DVD cover of a hindi flick'Dil Se'.
It was about the seven shades of love....
It wasnt that interesting for me that time but it really catches my imagination these days as the virtues it discuss are perfect in the sense of literary excellence,creative writing and practical aspect of life.....
Heres the exact excerpt...

According to ancient Arabic literature, love is classified into seven different shades. This is true even today.
The feelings are as old as mankind, only the circumstances have changed.

HUB
eyes meet,it is like a touch...a spark...
------------------ Attraction
UNS
the touch of the eyeswas as if,it was...
------------------ Infatuation
ISHQ
the flameof her body is felt,his breath starts igniting...
------------------ Love
AQUIDAT
she touches him like a whisper,as if silence is mixed in her eyes,
he prays, a little consciously,a little unconsciously...
------------------ Reverence
IBAADAT
he is entangled on her path,entangled in her armslove now turns to...
------------------ Worship
JUNOON
living is an obsession...dying is an obsession...apart from this there is no peace...
------------------ Obsession
MAUT
let him rest in the lap of death...let him drown his body in her soul...
------------------ Death


---Aditya Kunapareddy

/random/ on the education system of india

It may or may not be a really "grande pour discuter de" topic but is worth discussing.
India's education system is really complex and in some sense outdated,obsolete and what not...
India has learnt many things from Union Soviet at the time of late 70s etc like revolution,workers union,demolition of capitalism as it is a system that does injustice to workers..Vande Mataram,Ardharatri Swatantram,Yerra Sainyam,Lal Salaam and what not.....
But eventually failed to learn the most imporatnt and crucial stuff..guess what???
Technical education at the school stage,the students of the Union Soviet used to solve calculus at the school stage at that "we havent got any IT" timeperiod and still "Brand Indian" students learn calculus at the stage of senior secondary stage..In CBSE that too in low grade stage...
Thanks to these bon à rien,moneymaking tyrants and "we only want votes" politicians who had made the system more and more complex....
By the entrance of politicians into education,the system has improved to the level that SC/ST certificate matters more than your rank in competitive exams....
Dont worry as after some years the system might improve or might get still worse that the baby born will be handed his engineering degree saying that "congrats boy,thank your parents..not for giving you birth but for making you born in some "we need reservation" community....
As we see the boards here...
Lets get into the Andhra board.Its some board that makes the students get no less than 90%.Thanks to these "barbarian study circle" residential school where they just mug up the students but atleast make them get decent percentages but whats the actual significance when the value of the education system has lost and people now that its the result of mugging...
But think by getting no less than 90%,the education system has reached to the ultimate heights in the terms of excellence or might be has declined to the levels of creative destruction...
That was Andhra but the worse is the Bihar board...
Guess what?In Bihar board..you dont have to go to school,even in senior secondary stage,just bribe the master...Its done.Just enjoy or fly away to the educational cities for the coaching of the "India's top institute in learning" exam....and the most important thing is...
No matter if you study there or not...You can even buy an SC/ST certificate by bribing the concerned ministry...Some might even issue the certificate over a cup of coffee and a samosa...
But still India is some country that creates top notch technocrats like Sabeer Bhatia,Ashok Maliakal and many others who just make technology their playground.
But if the system was more supportive,they might have did it in their teens.....
Its still question de la confusion that teachers in many schools follow the curriculum blindly that the creativity of the student is diminished by the senior secondary stage that either he gets frustated or the teachers and parents dont support the student...and also the residential school which plays an important role in hampering the progress.....
But its the fact that parents are much concerned about student's(their offspring..guess that so scientific) involvement in the extra curricular activities,creativity,IQ and what not..But eventually fear about the result.Thats the factor that makes them encourage or ruin the students creativity.....
For the matter of fact,still there are parents who say senior secondary students to study which really isnt the stage to tell....
For example,if a student starts programming at the age of 9,the parents who think he is getting spoiled are more in India than them who think that my son is going to be the next Bill Gates,Steve Jobs,Larry Page who is going to set up next Microsoft,Apple Inc,Google Inc(lucky i am coz my parents are like that)


-Aditya Kunapareddy